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No One Left Behind by cannykins, literature

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No One Left Behind

Headlights blaze down a wooded highway going just over the speed limit. Three figures could be seen from the faint glow of the dashboard and the light of the passenger's phone. A female with her hair pulled back drove the silver car. She had her head propped against her fingertips, elbow braced against the window. Her fingertips lightly pressed and massaged her temples and forehead, as if trying to fight off a growing headache. Her face was was drawn with circles deep under her eyelids. She wasn't wearing makeup, but even that probably wouldn't had masked her fatigue. She wore a thick brown coat over a her black long sleeved blouse to keep th

The Talk by cannykins, literature

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The Talk

Cadence had been standing there at the door for quite some time. Had it been one minute? Had it been five? Time seemed to slip away and drag on all at the same time. She took a deep breath and held her hands together to keep from wringing them again. She was going to knock this time. ‘Why am I so nervous…? I mean … she did say I could come and talk to her at any time….’ Cadence parted her lips as she extended a hand, letting the anxiety that she held inside, seep out, at least all that she was able to part with. Her hand shook as it hovered over the wooden surface of the door. ‘I can’t … I ju

A Lifetime of Love by cannykins, literature

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A Lifetime of Love

Everyday I would watch her pass by on her way to school. I would get up early every morning just to claim that bench and wait. People would stop and ask why I would sit there for so long. I would just say, “I love the view,” and I wouldn’t even be lying. I had finally built up the courage to talk to her one late afternoon. It was one of the most nerve wrecking, heart clenching experience of my life up to that point, but it was worth it. So very worth it. We made fast friends. Every morning and every evening we would walk from and to home together. It was that time we spent together that gave me bliss… especially th

Suicidal Love by cannykins, literature

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Suicidal Love

Dear love How long did it take for the loneliness to consume you? Days of plotting you must have spent Letters upon letters you must have written, Your wastebasket full of crumpled up sheets. Tears of sorrow and bloodied fingerprints ruin what were once words of apologies and goodbyes, Now my own tears stain what is left of you now Sad love I guess we just weren't enough The warmth of our embraces you could not feel Our love for you, you could not see At what point did you become blind? Was it our words? Did you feel left behind? I'm sorry love I'm not blaming you I just wish you would have spoken to us told us shown us the pain you felt

Define your own beauty by cannykins, literature

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Define your own beauty

You can't possibly expect society to accept a definition of beauty when you can't even appreciate yourself. If you want things to change, start with how you look at yourself. Learn to love and consider yourself beautiful regardless of what size you are. People follow by example. Be that example. Society changes for no one but it’s own whims and what is popular. “I want a flatter tummy. Or I want society to change so I can feel better about myself.” No, things don’t work like that. If you want to feel better about yourself, you need to deal with your own insecurities and learn to appreciate yourself as a whole, flaws

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In my dreams by cannykins, literature

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In my dreams

In my dreams, I sometimes see her, my mother. I'll go to her, talk to her, ... hell I've even argued with her in my dreams ... seems we can't even keep peace even in my sleep and after she's gone. But after a while I hear a voice, "She's gone. She's dead. She's not coming back." It's my own voice that I hear. I will wake up after that, feeling empty and lost. It's like a reminder, a constant reminder that she's gone. Like I don't know that? Everyday I wake up, and pass her empty room. Everyday, every time I walk in the living room, her chair is empty. Every time I see something she likes, and I reach for it, thinking to myself, "Mom wou

Is fat all you see on me? by cannykins, literature

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Is fat all you see on me?

Here I sit, and I'm looking at all these posts about feeling disgusting and fat. It's not okay to be fat yourself but it's okay for others to be? You know. It hurts. It hurts because it's hypocritical. It hurts because if you can't even be happy with yourself, labeling yourself as fat, whether or not you actually are over weight. It hurts because it makes others feel worthless, because it's a bad word. Because it's another word for useless, worthless, ugly, and so on. And when others see those words, the hate and disgust associated with them, it just spreads the shame and pain. It hurts because no matter what size you are, you're gorgeous.

So you want to know what happens when you die? by cannykins, literature

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So you want to know what happens when you die?

As your organs start to fail and stop, your heart stops pumping. The blood no longer carries oxygen to your brain. The warmth is escaping your body, life itself has come to a halt. The energy you once expended, is no more. Slowly, the body turns cold. The skin becomes rubbery. Almost immediately your body is making preparations to decompose from the inside out, though slowly, depending where and how you die. As someone touches your lifeless body, all they feel is an empty shell of the one they used to know. They feel the shock. They feel the pain. And then, there is the sense of loss. If they were to touch your head, it would feel hallow

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Struggle Ch 23 -Extra Pair of Eyes- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 23 -Extra Pair of Eyes-

Struggle Ch 23 -Extra Pair of Eyes- "You want to use me as an information mule? How's that going to work? I don't go anywhere, haven't done anything except put myself at risk, haven't left since I've been here... Hell I just met that Elvira woman yesterday." He held up a hand, showing that he wanted to speak, "Elvira Deamon is a patient woman. She bides her time, plays whatever hand she wants, calculatedly. She has no issue with waiting for whatever she wants. I'll be honest. I don't have the foggiest idea what she's going to do with you. But I will tell you, that you're not the first to undergo the same experiment. Live or die, I doubt you

Struggle Ch 26 -Facade- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 26 -Facade-

Struggle Ch 26 -Facade- Blizzard jumped, turned around and almost fell on her ass, all the while getting to her feet and facing him, "Raid! It's not what you--" Raid held up a hand, "We need to take this elsewhere. This is between you and me. Canny doesn't need to be in the middle of this." Blizzard opened her mouth to speak, or maybe she went slack jawed out of shock. It was obvious that he was furious, however he was forcing himself to keep a level head, at least until they got some privacy. Cannon reached out and squeezed Blizzard's hand, "... I can go. I need a change of scenery anyways." She rose to her feet, her form shifting into h

Struggle Ch 25 -Problem- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 25 -Problem-

Struggle Ch 25 -Problem- "To what do I owe the pleasure of this visitation my dear child?" Elvira's eyes didn't wander from the document she had been reading, though her guest and the document both shared her attention. "...Pardon my intrusion. I wanted to speak with you about Doctor Morton Phillips' retirement as head practitioner." "What of it? Have you decided to reclaim your position?" Elvira's gaze was now on Blizzard, the tablet now laying on her lap instead. "...Yes. I've been thinking this over for a while now. I want to try once more." "It has been many years child, since you've practiced. Why should I choose you instead of Corn

Struggle Ch 24 -Confirmed- by cannykins, literature

Struggle Ch 22 -Proposition- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 22 -Proposition-

Struggle Ch 22 -Proposition- Serpentei had fell back into a meditative state after briefly waking after sensing the disturbance of Cannon's soul dominance trial. That was the only thing keeping him there - curiosity. Breaking out from these bonds was fairly simple. While they were strong enough to contain him for a couple of days, they had long since weakened. He was now fully awake again. He was unsure how long he had been in this place. He wondered how his advisers were handling his responsibilities in his stead. He did use his dragon incarnation to give orders and make decisions on important matters, but that was done few and far in betw

Struggle Ch 21 -The Talk- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 21 -The Talk-

Struggle Ch 21 -The Talk- Cannon had been waiting for some time now. Since the exam rooms were all filled and a patient list that was steadily growing, Blizzard decided it would be best to have her wait in this room. It was an office, no doubt one of the physicians that were station here. It seemed odd though. Dust had settled everywhere, the room looked to have not been in use for quite some time. She suspected that the dust would had been thicker if not for the occasional cleaning. "Sorry Can Can for the long wait. I had to gather your files and look them over." Cannon turned in her seat, finding Blizzard holding an electronic pad, still

Struggle Ch 20 -Observant- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 20 -Observant-

Chapter 20 –Observant- She dropped the bloody scythe. It hit the floor with a thud then faded into nothing. Cannon was panting, drenched in her own blood and sweat. She trembled in weakness. She dropped to her knees, her hands slamming into the floor and splashed into the pool of blood. "S-so… much … blood." She coughed and hacked as she crouched lower in weakness. Her clothes and hair were soaking up the blood that littered the floor. She used too much of her blood, too much of her power. "I-I harbor s-so much power … a-and yet I can't use much of it." She gasped then growled. "God damnit … it's so painful." Selene

Struggle Ch 19 Breaking Bonds by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 19 Breaking Bonds

Chapter 19 –Breaking Bonds- Cannon's hair turned red, her eyes just as crimson. The black shirt and jeans she wore faded into a red robe that fitted her well and a thick chain that rested on her hips. "Brace yourself. This will be painful in some form or way be it physically or mentally, perhaps both. I cannot guarantee that all your power will return to you if at all, but you may be able to regain that power through proper training. Understand?" Selene's eyes went wide as Cannon's form changed, not just her body but her demeanor and voice. The air around her felt heavy but it wasn't oppressive. It felt menacing in its own way but not

Struggle Ch 18 -Confide in Me- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 18 -Confide in Me-

Chapter 18 –Confide in Me- It didn't take them much effort to catch up with Cannon. It was practically a ritual after every summons that they hightail it away from Elvira's chambers. "So I guess she made you leader," spoke Tundra from behind. "Yeah I guess so." "Do we even need a eighth," Tundra asked, but it sounded like it was directed toward someone else. "Yep." "Then who do you suggest," this time Tundra walked beside her. "Selene." She wanted to go back to sleep. She wanted so badly to go back to sleep but her mind just wouldn't clear and rest. She wanted to but just couldn't. Not after the morning she had. Selene was sitt

Struggle Ch 17 -Prized- by cannykins, literature

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Struggle Ch 17 -Prized-

Chapter 17 -Prized- Cannon finally recovered from the repercussions of the training ground but it took a little over a month. She had been in a comatose for about three weeks until Selene's distress awoken her. Since that night she has been in stable condition. The pain she had been living with since the completion of her soul had been subsided for the most part. She still felt pain of course but at least her body wasn't throbbing like a sore thumb. She spent most of her time in her medical room. If she stayed in here any longer she might as well claim it as hers. Days were passing lazily by; she spent most of the time alone. She hadn't s

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Why You Should Keep Writing

Dec 22, 2012

:bigthumb308643708: Q: What do you guys think of my story so far? Should I keep going? This seems to be a very popular question. I'll argue it's a useless question, and explain why. This reply is directed at new writers, and despite the tone that may follow, I really do intend to be sincere and helpful. I was once a newbie, too. And although I'm certainly not going to claim to be great, I've fallen flat on my face enough times to learn how to pick myself up and produce something I'm proud of. Here's why you need to not ask this question. You're either going to succeed, or you're going to fail. But, either way, you'll be better off for hav

Past Life Regression by Malintra-Shadowmoon, literature

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Past Life Regression

There exist different types of regressions. They can be executed with the instruction of a hypnotizer or a therapist (I do not know many of these ones) or by yourself. Even when conducted on your own there are divers possibilities: solely by yourself or with the help of spirit guides what signifies a further meditation within an already existing meditation phase. In both cases you will end up in an out of body experience. I find the method involving spirit guides too complicated. Usually I do it on my own without means of help and may also give an instruction, if somebody would like to try it out. It does not harm. First of all, a correct me

Spirits: Animals as Guides by industry-productions, literature

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Spirits: Animals as Guides

Let's talk about animal spirits. Many people believe that the spirits of animals sometimes act as our spiritual guides through life. There is also a belief in totem animals, or animal spirits that represent a person based on his/her personality traits. My personal guide is a white wolf with black on her paws, tail, and face. She has protected and guided me for quite some time, and I'm eternally grateful to her. Here are some animals, and their traits: Aardvark/Anteater: finding things that are hidden Alligator/Croc: power, patience, potency, initiation Apes: power through group effort, communication Armadillo: protection, the home Badge

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Abducted Part One - A Mother's Worst Nightmare by cannykins, literature

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Abducted Part One - A Mother's Worst Nightmare

Abducted Part One - A Mother's Worst Nightmare The small girl stirred on the bed, her body felt heavy and her mind, groggy. The girl made herself sit up. Something didn't feel right. This wasn't her bed. This room wasn't hers. "Mommy?" She waited for a response. A minute passed. "Mommy? Where are you? Where am I?" Tears started to burn her eyes, "Mommy…?!" Her body shuddered as she started to sob, quietly at first. The louder sobs were muffled when she cried into the pillow. She was too scared to move or even call out again. She cried for a while, until she was too tired to shed another tear. The girl sniffled and wiped away at the

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June 25, 1987
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I have always had an imagination. Writing used to be something I was good at, then came to be something I enjoyed. It never used to be a passion until recently; until I got the urge to share my stories with you, the viewers. I am but a novice, but I hope to improve as I go along in my writing. Someday I hope to publish. I wish I could draw. I would love to show the world my characters and scenes as I envision them, but sadly, I do not have the patience to learn art. I hope you all enjoy my work. I must implore you all to criticize and leave comments. Feedback fuels the urge to keep writing and improving.

Current Residence: The Moon
Operating System: Windows 7
Shell of choice: linkshell (FFXI)
Favourite cartoon character: Sailor Moon
Personal Quote: I don't like music that yells at me.

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Frozen (currently)

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Criminal Minds, Law and Order SVU, Sailor Moon, DBZ, Cowboy Bepop, Inuyasha, Bleach. Naruto, Thunder Cats (both versions), and so many more

Favourite Books

Harry Potter Series, Night Angel Trilogy

Favourite Writers

J.K. Rowling. Brent Weeks

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Lunar Silver Star Story Complete / Lunar Eternal Blue Complete / Valkyrie Profile /

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PS2/3/PSP

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computer, keyboard, screen, (sometimes) pen and paper

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Writing, Manga, Anime, Video Games (RPGs)

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cannykins

Mar 22, 2015

My Week for anyone that cares

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My week started off with a bang. Last Sunday the parking breaks failed on the cart and rolled backwards into a vehicle while I was in a unit. Next day my day started off shitty with a spending ticket, which oddly enough was the highlight of my day, not the worse but work ended short with going to the office and being told I need to be sent home because I don’t have the proper shoes despite telling them I couldn’t afford them. To make matters even funner, I wasn’t the only one without said shoes that day but I was the only one sent home. So while I was over joyed to leave hell a lot earlier than expected and I get to stay hom

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cannykins

Jul 30, 2013

It's been forever

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I finally managed to write something, even if it wasn't prose, it's still something. I've been battling depression, illness and a number of other things, still am but I'm hoping things will start to look up soon. I've been looking for a job ... with no luck. I've had a few loved ones pass recently and I have a family member in the hospital so there is still a lot going on. But hey, I managed to write this didn't I? Something must be giving in. It's a depressing piece and it's out of my muse but, hey, it's better than nothing.

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cannykins

Jan 19, 2013

Another Morbid Update. Yay.

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So ... I'll just skip everything that's happened between my post on the second and now and just stick with the main things. My dog has a tumor in his nasal cavity. It's either cancerous, fungus, or just a large mass of meat that is just growing for whatever reason. If it's a tumor, radiation will only be effective for a year. If it's a fungus they can do something about it but ... over all he's not looking so good. He can barely breathe and he's lost a lot of weight because he can't smell, and he's just worked himself so much trying to get his breath. I've been by his side non-stop since I first heard him struggle to breathe through his nose