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  • Mood: Rant
My week started off with a bang. Last Sunday the parking breaks failed on the cart and rolled backwards into a vehicle while I was in a unit. Next day my day started off shitty with a spending ticket, which oddly enough was the highlight of my day, not the worse but work ended short with going to the office and being told I need to be sent home because I don’t have the proper shoes despite telling them I couldn’t afford them. To make matters even funner, I wasn’t the only one without said shoes that day but I was the only one sent home. So while I was over joyed to leave hell a lot earlier than expected and I get to stay home until Friday because I’m off Weds and Thursday.

I got the shoes I needed and went to work Friday. I’m greeted with a wrote up slip for not having said shoes at the deadline and for not telling her about the parking breaks, which I mentioned weeks before but apparently no one remembers so I didn’t mention it for the sake of being called a liar. I had enough and went to a lady at lunch. Talking to her was rather pointless but it got shit off of my chest.

All through the week I dealt with the usual pain of my leg/ankle until about 2:20 AM this morning I woke up with severe leg pain shooting up my leg. After laying there and figuring it was just going to get worse and not stop, and I wouldn’t be able to work in this condition, I set off for the ER. Got there a little after 4, didn’t leave til about 6:30 which really isn’t long considering how they usually take. So I take medicine when I get home, pass out until 3:30 this evening, got up long enough to eat and watch a little bit of youtube, and right now Im waiting for medicine to kick in as a I write this because it’s getting worse again and I needed a distraction.

I can’t keep going like this. I just can’t. 


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United States
I have always had an imagination. Writing used to be something I was good at, then came to be something I enjoyed. It never used to be a passion until recently; until I got the urge to share my stories with you, the viewers. I am but a novice, but I hope to improve as I go along in my writing. Someday I hope to publish. I wish I could draw. I would love to show the world my characters and scenes as I envision them, but sadly, I do not have the patience to learn art. I hope you all enjoy my work. I must implore you all to criticize and leave comments. Feedback fuels the urge to keep writing and improving.

Current Residence: The Moon
Operating System: Windows 7
Shell of choice: linkshell (FFXI)
Favourite cartoon character: Sailor Moon
Personal Quote: I don't like music that yells at me.
I finally managed to write something, even if it wasn't prose, it's still something.

I've been battling depression, illness and a number of other things, still am but I'm hoping things will start to look up soon.

I've been looking for a job ... with no luck. I've had a few loved ones pass recently and I have a family member in the hospital so there is still a lot going on.

But hey, I managed to write this didn't I? Something must be giving in. It's a depressing piece and it's out of my muse but, hey, it's better than nothing.
Suicidal LoveDear love
How long did it take for the loneliness to consume you?
Days of plotting you must have spent
Letters upon letters you must have written,
Your wastebasket full of crumpled up sheets.
Tears of sorrow and bloodied fingerprints ruin what were once words of apologies and goodbyes,
Now my own tears stain what is left of you now
Sad love
I guess we just weren't enough
The warmth of our embraces
you could not feel
Our love for you,
you could not see
At what point did you become blind?
Was it our words?
Did you feel left behind?
I'm sorry love
I'm not blaming you
I just wish you would have spoken to us
told us
shown us
the pain you felt but so well you concealed
We could have helped
We could have become better
For you we would have shot down the moon
Just to make you better
Oh love
Your room is so empty
And so is our life
We have nothing to live for
Our inner light, no longer shines
Goodbye love
We were forced to say.
Dirt covers you now
and a coffin you lay
No longer is it blankets
  • Mood: Neutral

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