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I have always had an imagination. Writing used to be something I was good at, then came to be something I enjoyed. It never used to be a passion until recently; until I got the urge to share my stories with you, the viewers. I am but a novice, but I hope to improve as I go along in my writing. Someday I hope to publish. I wish I could draw. I would love to show the world my characters and scenes as I envision them, but sadly, I do not have the patience to learn art. I hope you all enjoy my work. I must implore you all to criticize and leave comments. Feedback fuels the urge to keep writing and improving.

Current Residence: The Moon
Operating System: Windows 7
Shell of choice: linkshell (FFXI)
Favourite cartoon character: Sailor Moon
Personal Quote: I don't like music that yells at me.
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So ... I'll just skip everything that's happened between my post on the second and now and just stick with the main things.

My dog has a tumor in his nasal cavity. It's either cancerous, fungus, or just a large mass of meat that is just growing for whatever reason. If it's a tumor, radiation will only be effective for a year. If it's a fungus they can do something about it but ... over all he's not looking so good. He can barely breathe and he's lost a lot of weight because he can't smell, and he's just worked himself so much trying to get his breath. I've been by his side non-stop since I first heard him struggle to breathe through his nose. I wouldn't be so bad if he would just open his mouth and breathe. He does some when he's out and about but when he's home, he likes to do it through his nose and it just takes a lot out of him. He's gotten so weak... it's just heart wrenching.

Next my dad is getting surgery done. He's getting his tonsils removed, some of his tongue cut out, and there is a possibility that he may have to have a trachea put in, all for his breathing issues. There is a possibility that he can come out of it okay. But there is also a possibility that he could die from this surgery. It's a delicate procedure in a very crucial place when it comes to living.

My anxieties have just blown out of proportion. My dog it hurts for obvious reasons, and the same goes for my dad. I also have to find a way to make money and there aren't much around for jobs. The thing about living near a beach, is that it's a seasonal area. Things may pick up soon but it won't last and I need something stable in order to take care of dad, my dogs and the bills.

I'm attempting a class for the second time.

I think I've fallen prey to chronic fatigue and I'm in dire need of a psychologist and hopefully my aunt can help me find one soon.

I feel like I'm literally losing my mind. Mom's death still feels like it happened yesterday. I lost a dog a few days before the anniversary of her death, the very same dog that went missing and came back the day we buried her, that same very dog suffered and died in my arms not even a month ago - and it kills me because there wasn't a thing I could do about it. Then a cousin died on the same day my mother did. ... I did say I wasn't going to touch on this stuff but hell, I need to get this off of my mind.

I'm just at my wits end. I haven't been this deep in depression in four years and it scares the shit out of me.

I just want things to be okay. I just want life to stop being a complete hell for a few months and just let me regain some energy and sanity.

I don't even care about writing anymore. I just don't care about anything other my dogs, my dad, and just making the achievement of getting up in the mornings. Damnit I'm tired. I'm just so tired.
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~Sohlrane Jul 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
How are things? And would you believe I've done ABSOLUTELY NOTHING since your critique?
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*cannykins Jul 4, 2012  Student Writer
Things are getting better. I haven't done anything much as far as writing goes. I had two critiques that I hadn't gotten around to approving. x.x So they're expired now because I got caught up in the chaos of tests and ER visits. Bleh. Other than that. I can't complain.

How are things with you? Got caught up in other things or just kickin' back and haven't gotten around to anything?
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~Sohlrane Jul 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Recently moved (again) but other than that, doing absolutely nothing despite my self-made promise to try my hand at music. And art. So yeah, my account's pretty much collecting dust.
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